It's been mentioned about 32672347834 times so far, but I thought that I would reiterate.
I go to an arts school.
I don't plan on being an artist when I grow up. I'd like to be a news anchor or a talk show host. I feel like I should be ashamed, but I'm not. Everyone around me moves at an artist's pace, fast to the point of exhaustion, or slow, so slow that you barely notice, but this seems not to hinder the pace at which I move. I know that my school is the right place for me to be. Do they make news anchors/poets? I doubt it. Maybe I'll be the first.
But I still have a nagging feeling that, despite my love of art, creating art, living art, I feel that I don't have anything to show for it. I can't display my paintings, I can't sing a song, I don't dance, I can't form a sculpture, I can't play music. I can only write. Where does that take me? With a painting or a song or a dance, you can spend only a few seconds deciding whether or not you like it, whereas, with writing, you need to take the time to read it, to understand it, to let it sink in.
In a world so chaotic and fast-paced and recklessly in love with itself, who has time for that? Who has time to listen to whatever angsty teenage words that I jot down between my erratic and occasionally sluggish social life? I don't know. I really don't.
The human condition is one that tells us that we must find answers to our problems, our questions, our goals. I sure as hell haven't found anything.
Enlighten me.
-Claire.
3 comments:
I have time! Even though you don't plan on being the typical sense of what the word "artist" is, perse, the important thing is to remember that you are blessed to attend a school that, I'm assuming, readily encourages creative expression. Especially since I have studied education/teaching, I am well aware that schools and teachers generally stifle creativity in everyone who attends school. It's not intentional, but when we are children, we don't think twice about being creative or being self conscious about it; when we're adults, most of us have lost that free spirit. Also, writing IS an art. Language arts? It's in the humanities section of every college. And plus, you are very talented and have at least: 1) your blog and 2) your YouTube shows to show for it! Why else do you think a stranger (me) was drawn to you? You're fantastic! PS--I made my blog private. I'm not sure how to add you since blogger asks me to send you an invitation to your email, which I don't have.
I can still read your blog, even though it's private, because I was your "follower" before you went private. :)
Hm. weird. I did end up finding your email and inviting you, but one of my other followers couldn't read it until I invited her.
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